Yesterday was …… shit. Yes, shit is an accurate summation.
Last night I had this weird experience of hearing a baby crying. Like a really young baby. But its cry wasn’t normal, it was a distressed, traumatised cry.
And I was experiencing the baby’s distress as if it were me or I was it… I don’t know… it’s very hard to describe.
I have been playing a game on my phone a lot to distract and calm myself but this baby’s cry just interjected constantly for about 30 minutes or so.
Not sure if it’s a body memory thing or a dissociative part of me or something else.
But it hurt.
I flipped about all day, feeling okay and not okay. And mostly okay but not really okay.
Low level crapness.
Is this really all because my therapist isn’t here? ☹