Seeking opinions..

I would love some honest input about a new piece of art I created recently.

It’s an experimental piece using moulding paste, acrylics, inks, coloured glass and swarvoski crystals and I’m not sure what I think of it.

Is anyone up for telling me their opinion on it? It’s okay if you hate it! Lol

I can’t decide whether I like it or not. I kind of do and kind of don’t.

It’s on 10cm x 10cm stretched canvas.

And is a variation on the much bigger blue one which is on canvas board.. which I love!

So… What are your thoughts on the first one? Please help!


Easter Art

Instead of making a daily post of all the art people share with me, I have made a page dedicated to Easter Art. It’s at the top of the page with the other menu options. It will be update daily, so check back to see what’s new.

Thanks again to those taking part, I love receiving your art. I get excited to see what comes in.

I hope others might want to join in along the way… c’mon you know you want to!!! 😉

The idea is to use a drawing app and draw pictures on your phone, because it’s fun, but also, it’s really hard to be accurate or even good, so it takes away the pressure of even trying to be! All art is going to look like a 2 year old did it and that’s great, it produces really sweet, honest images! However if you’d like to join in and really don’t like using an app, send a drawn picture instead and I’ll post them.



Draw your Feelz.


So, the first pictures are in from readers who’ve used a drawing app to draw how they’re currently feeling.

I hope others join in if they want to. Send me as many as you like throughout Easter and I’ll post them up. You can even do it anonymously if you like, just let me know when you email that you don’t want your name on it. You can download a drawing app to your phone or even just draw a picture if you prefer and send me a picture of it.

The drawing app is good because it doesn’t require anyone to be “good” at art because it’s almost impossible to draw accurately with it and therefore take away any pressure for it to look good. It’s a very fluid way of expressing yourself.

It’s a lovely way for us all to connect during the holidays when our therapists are away and it feels tough.

Email –

First two come from Lily




And this one came from Rubberbandsandchewinggum



Ocean Vibes

I just wanted to share with you guys two pieces of art that I’ve been working on and that will be going up for sale super soon..

I’m really in a blue/green/turquoise phase right now. Something about those Oceanic hues that just calm my soul.

I’ve been finding so much joy in experimenting with texture and mixed media.

If they don’t sell I think I’ll just get them framed and put up on my living room walls.

I should be sleeping, it’s 3:42am!!! But here I am awake and knee-deep in paint! Lol.


Not writing about my sessions…

It’s been on my mind that I haven’t been writing in depth about my therapy sessions lately. And I do wonder why?

Two very real reasons is that I have been sleeping through the night for the most part and that was usually my time to sit and listen to my session and write about it, and also I’ve been concentrating a lot more on creating art to sell. Time has seemed to slip away recently and I am far busier creating art, maintaining social media feeds, preparing an etsy store and investing in my self-care routines.

But also, as I’ve mentioned before, I am trying to keep myself balanced and away from trauma stuff during the week now that I don’t have Sienna’s support between sessions. I am still trying to find myself around this new way of working and feel pretty unsteady about whether I will cope. So, I think I am avoiding listening back to my sessions in case I become triggered.

The sessions themselves have slowed down quite a lot too. I think we are both conscious of trying to find where my tolerance levels lie and not triggering me too much.

There’s a lot more general chat, as we attempt to rebuild the trust lost from the rupture. There’s an element of us both resting from the hard stuff and just allowing ourselves to be in the room together. I think we both got a big fright by what happened at the end of the year and we have both been shaken.

There has been therapy work done though. And I find my young alters edging forward more often which is new. Their chosen form of communication is texting and emailing or drawing. Sienna had spoken to her supervisor about her worry that if she took away emailing and texting that the young alters would be silenced. That they would have no way to express their traumas and that Sienna wouldn’t be able to get to them. Her supervisor assured her that they would come in time. To be patient.

And now that the choice of emailing and texting isn’t there anymore, the alters are trying to move towards coming to sessions. I feel them a lot more often in sessions and less at home. I think that’s probably a good thing?

The Editor and the teen parts are still careful about what they let the child parts do or express, they don’t have free reign in sessions. But I feel them there.

As a result, there’s been this real urge to physically be in contact with Sienna. This hungering need to cuddle into her or lean against her. The child parts need a lot of reassurance and they also feel a lot of love and affection for Sienna and that results in them always wanting to be close to her, if they can.

The teenage parts haven’t really featured much. They do not want to engage with Therapy or with Sienna. They have no trust in her and they are so angry and hurt with her and what she did during the rupture. I think they have stayed away because they are afraid of their own rage. They feel rage and they don’t know what to do with that. How to express it, how to extinguish it. It’s so destructive and I am guessing they fear their own power.

Saying that, Sofia did turn up last Thursday. Sofia has less anger towards Sienna. I think that’s because she does trust Sienna now. And she trusts Sienna more than she is angry, so that allows her to drop the rage. I feel like Sofia is less an angry guardian and more a vulnerable teen – when with Sienna, not anyone else.

I am dreading the time we have a bad session and/or Sienna is misattuned. I am still not sure how I am going to cope with that. How am I going to wait a whole week holding all the emotions that come from a bad session?

I am spending a lot of time cultivating a positive, nurturing adult within myself. I use my Instagram account to allow the adult part of me to speak to the rest of me, to motivate me, inspire confidence, reminding myself and the parts that I CAN do things. It is really working for me. And it keeps me on task for whatever it is I need to do on any given day. It focuses my mind.

Originally it was set up by Sofia and Mia, a place for their teenage attitude to have its say. But they haven’t bothered with it much. So now this new adult is using it. (Feel free to follow me.)


I don’t always feel happy or inspired or settled or motivated. So sometimes it feels a bit forced to post something inspiring. But it seems to work, even if I am having a down day, just posting something positive reminds me of the adult within and I get moving with my day and my mood switches over to the adult mind. The Instagram account has really been an unexpected success for my tool bag of coping.

A big part of my coping lately and my drive to succeed with my art is the appearance of this adult part. It is allowing me to have space from the trauma stuff. It is allowing me to move away from all the stuff that drags me down and renders me frozen every day.

I am dissociating a lot more than I was and I think that’s a by-product of having to hold a lot more for myself now that the boundaries have changed. I find myself losing time, or feeling quite confused and forgetful. I feel the vulnerability and sadness of the parts quite often. And I feel tired holding so much by myself.

But the adult part is helping me balance out and cope and I am so grateful for that.

The shift in my sessions is interesting. Without the outside contact, they are more concentrated or focused or something. Sienna does seem more present. They feel more traditional or more…. I don’t know… the attention is all on me, not on us, the relationship, what’s gone on in the week via email, not the countertransference etc

It feels like we are back to basics. It’s like I’ve gone from high school back to Nursery class. And it actually feels like a relief. All the pressure is off. All the difficult stuff is kept at bay, it’s at a level that I can go out into the world and cope with. I can go into the session and be the centre of the world for an hour. There’s no battle. No drama. Just pure attention and caring.

I am under no illusions that it will always be like that. But for now, it’s what I need.