This rupture isn’t over.
In our phone-Check in it sounded like she was still thinking texting should be revoked and we had a lot more discussing to do.
This led to me have a bit of a meltdown and telling her I wasn’t coming back. She didn’t say much so I ended the call.
I then sent her a text asking WTF she’s playing at, that this is going to put me in hospital.
I’ve been in crisis all day. And she refused to engage, even when I said I felt suicidal and couldn’t cope . She told to go to A&E and that she wasn’t available.
I took a valium and slept all day but I’ve woke up feel just as horrific.
I think this therapy relationship is over. I’ve done it again.
I feel so alone. I want to die I don’t want to live with this pain I’m feeling. The loss is too much for me.
Why does everyone leave me.